so let me break again and again on the rocks
so long i let other peoples’ words define me
tell me to be scared of opening
spread eagled
being flayed
being wrong
again and again
am i to learn right from wrong
from your twisted words when even they
fling me against the rocks
flay me
spread eagled
open me without consent
violated
i am ready
for opening
on my terms
for surrender to this ocean of experience
becasue that’s all we are
all we can do
is experience
so why do so
with anyone else’s words
let me break open again and again on the rocks
because I long to feel again
flayed
spread-eagled
open
on my own terms
Nihilistic Porcupine 