Category: poetry

you’re holding a nuclear bomb or a firework

you choose

are you scared of me

or do you love me

maybe both?

i’m spinning out

are you scared of me?

i’m pure power

unadulterated

uncontainable

or maybe i’m in my head again

or forgot my meds again

so let me break again and again on the rocks

so long i let other peoples’ words define me

tell me to be scared of opening

spread eagled

being flayed

being wrong

again and again

am i to learn right from wrong

from your twisted words when even they

fling me against the rocks

flay me

spread eagled

open me without consent

violated

i am ready

for opening

on my terms

for surrender to this ocean of experience

becasue that’s all we are

all we can do

is experience

so why do so

with anyone else’s words

let me break open again and again on the rocks

because I long to feel again

flayed

spread-eagled

open

on my own terms

I want my pillz man

But the man in front of me at the pharmacy can’t stop talking about

God

Judgment

Churches

Hispanics??

Fuck

I just want my pillz man