Philo leaned against the ropes of the theater’s curtain. The show was running on the lit stage in front of him. That’s how it always was. Philo stuck to the corner. No one would think about who built the set or who was running the lights. They would watch the actors pantomiming human emotions. They would be entertained. They might laugh. They might cry. All the while forgetting what the play really was. A fake.
The stage manager walked up to Philo.
“Get ready for the set change,” she ordered. Philo nodded. “Remember, the
prince goes offstage and we need to get the bed on as quickly as possible. I know this is just a rehearsal, but you know what they say: practice like you play.”
Philo nodded again, but he wasn’t listening.
The pain was crawling through his toes. It shot though his legs, and now it
was crawling again. Higher, higher, his navel, his ribs. His heart.
It stabbed.
His chin met his knee. He barely heard the stage manager’s voice as it trickled
down to him.
“Philo, are you are right?” He focused on his eyes. His jaw muscle’s strained.
His joints screamed as he straightened out and brushed Dora off.
“I’m fine…just…leave me alone…” He ran, or that’s what he planned to do. He
only stumbled a couple steps before he slammed into a row of lockers.
He was going to die.
This is what happened when you forgot to take the drug. You died. Philo was
going to die. Then they’d all know. They’d know that the vice had grabbed him
around the neck. He could almost hear their voices now.
“He seemed like such a nice guy.” It was always seemed with the drug deaths.
None of them were nice, but they all had seemed that way. The only kindnesses the deceased would get were the denials. “It can’t be. I don’t believe it,” like being on the Drug made them a different person, like it made all their good deeds go away.
Now Philo was heading to that same place, to that same despair in death. His
head was spiraling, his vision blackening.
Cold glass pressed into his palm. He dared not look. It felt like the Vice, [his
savior now]. But what if it wasn’t?
He opened his hand. A blue liquid shimmered at him.
It was the Drug. His blurred eyes caught a brown head of hair. The head turned and nodded. He didn’t have time or energy to follow his savior, but now he
had the drug. He could live, at least for now.