quarantine 3

Neal was drifting in and out of sleep in his austere grey room with a bed that looked like a cot. He didn’t want to think about the scenes of that day, but they kept drifting into his sleeping eyes and kept insisting that he scream at them, silently, one more time. 

He was alone, waking and sleeping. Even Acardi had learned silence and inaction and in his silent screaming, he was alone. 

He woke to a scurrying in the vents. He groaned and rolled over. On top of all this, the compound had a vermin problem. The next moment, the scurrying seemed closer, like it was on the ground next to his bed, whatever it was. 

And a hand closed over his mouth. He meant to yell, but the hand was clamped tight over his lips.

“No sounds,” the reedy voice whispered. “It’s very secret. You act like a guard, lead me down the hall. I am handcuffed. But I lead you. Then you’ll sleep better. You’ll see.” A scrawny girl handed Neal a pair of iron handcuffs, then turned away and offered him her hands. His hands were shaking as he closed the iron over her thin wrists, but what choice did he have? 

Neal Grover only paused to pull on a pair of jeans and tuck in his white undershirt before following this strange girl down the hall, wherever she led him.  

She made him push her along a couple times so it looked like he was leading her, but it didn’t matter. The halls were deserted. Neal didn’t know his way well enough even to know what sector he was in when the girl stopped abruptly in front of a door that looked exactly the same as all the others and passed him the handcuff key. He freed her wrists and she opened the door with another key from her pocket.

She slipped in, barely opening the door, forcing Neal to edge his way through awkwardly behind her. 

The room was well lit and furnished with a round table and chairs whose occupants were of all shapes and sizes. Among them was Vanessa Acardi. A man with a beard that was barely more than stubble stood up and looked expectantly at Acardi. She nodded.

“He’s the one.” Neal tried to keep himself steel, but his eyes never obeyed. Now they were wide with alarm. The man nodded curtly at the scrawny girl who had brought Neal here.

“Good job, Norv, as always,” he complimented. Norv smiled crookedly.

“See. Rat’s are good for something.” She turned her smile sideways to Neal. “Aren’t they?” Neal was too confused to respond, and whether he would admit it or not, he was scared. 

“What’s going on?” he snapped. The man’s figure commanded the room as he looked at Neal with direct, but not harsh, eyes. 

“My name is Viktor Nicklaus Hartmann and this is the Resistance.”

quarantine 2

Neal was sitting in the break room, still wanting to cry. He had no duties yet, so he was waiting, but he wasn’t sure what for. Vanessa Acardi came into the small room and got herself coffee as stiff as she always was, but that didn’t stop Neal, or the words that tumbled out of his mouth desperately, almost tearfully. 

“How do you do it?”  Acardi turned towards him and raised her eyebrows.

“Do what?” she asked.

“What you just did. When that guy just…” he shook his head, “and you just stood there.” The guard thought about it as she stirred half-and-half into a small styrofoam coffee cup. 

“Just like you did,” she answered.

“What?” 

“Like you did,” she repeated. “Stand still, say nothing, do nothing.” Neal shook his head.

“But how do you just let that happen, right in front of you?” Acardi opened her mouth, about to answer, but changed her mind. She paused with her eyes on this new guard, scared and desperate, and she looked almost sorry. She apologized with a sad smile. 

“You learn,” she said, and left.

curse of the magi 33

Jaumet also felt the light sensation of Elia’s fingers on his cheekbones and temples. Again she shot a small pain spell through her fingers. Jaumet blocked it as minimally as he could.

“You are Janus Terminus. WAT score: 33. Training: Sigma Kappa.”

Randell watched in wonder as a black-ink scorpion sprouted out of Elia’s left middle finger. It scuttled over Jaumet’s face, leaving tracks as it went, like it was traveling on sand, not skin. It scurried to his collar bone and tracked over his unfinished serial number. He opened his eyes and Randell’s breath caught in his throat.

“Jaumet?” he asked. Jaumet look confused.

“Uh, yeah?” Randell sighed in relief

“Never mind.” Jaumet shrugged. As Randell looked at Elia he caught a small smile slip off her face. She nodded.

“Time to go.”

curse of the magi 32

Randell looked at Elia frantically.

“What have you done? He doesn’t recognize me.” Elia nodded.

“A confusion spell, make you almost impossible to recognize, but once I put one on Jaumet, he’ll have no trouble recognizing you.”

“Well hurry up,” Randell snapped desperately. “My best friend doesn’t know who I am.”

curse of the magi 31

Jaumet watched as a dynamic tattoo snaked over Randell’s face and chest. Thorny vines crawled across his collar bone to cover the unfinished wizard serial number. Randell opened his eyes and Jaumet’s brain was clouded over by temporary confusion.

“You look so familiar,” he told the man across from him. “I just can place where I’ve seen you before.”

curse of the magi 30

Randell felt Elia’s fingers as she positioned them on the sides of his face.

“WAT score?” She asked.

“Never took it.”

“Training?”

“Pi.” Randell felt a small pain spell make its way through her fingers. He pushed back with a full-strength blocking spell and tried to pull away. Elia held on.

“Block it with as little energy as you can.” She ordered firmly and leaned into his ear. “You have to trust me.” She whispered. Randell squeezed his eyes shut and nodded as much as her hands would allow. She sent the spell again and he blocked it with as little magic as
he could. Elia took note of this and did some calculations in her head. “You are Romulus Lacheses. WAT score: 34. Training: Sigma Kappa.” Randell fought the urge to turn back.

“What?”

“Your new identity.” Randell had more questions, but he already felt another spell wash over his skin.

curse of the magi 29

Meanwhile, Elia had slipped, unnoticed into the bathroom. Hovsep had left a white rag on the counter with a note on it. Take it with you. Elia wasted no time; she wet the rag, wrung it out and rejoined Randell and Jaumet.

They had pulled out of their hug and Jaumet was slumped against the wall behind the bed. Elia cocked her head at Jaumet.

“Doing okay?” He nodded distractedly. She made quick work of cleaning and healing where the pain spells had broken skin. She turned to Randell and gave him a questioning look. He nodded his permission and slipped his white blood and sweat-soaked shirt over his head. And Elia cleaned out the new wounds on his back, not mentioning the three
already scarred over. As she worked on Randell’s back, Jaumet turned his head.

“What’s next?” Elia didn’t look up as she answered.

“We find you a place to hide.” Randell turned his head as far as he could without shifting his back.

“Where?”

“In plain sight.”

“What?”

“I’m taking you back to the compound.” Randell and Jaumet made eye contact in one lightning movement. Randell shook his head and Jaumet nodded in agreement. Before Elia could make any move, Jaumet and Randell were at the door. They hit something before
they crossed the threshold, something that made them flinch back and turn to Elia.

Her green eyes were apologetic.

“You have to trust me,” she pleaded. “If you go out there, the sniffers will be on you before you know it. They’ll take you back, and maybe next time you won’t be so lucky.”

Jaumet looked to Randell, who hesitated. Elia saw the look and bit her lip. “Please, you have to trust me.” Jaumet pierced his friend with his eyes. Randell sighed.

“What do we have to do?”

curse of the magi 28

When Jaumet heard those magical words, he struggled to raise his head and look at their savior, but, as always, Randell was too proud.

“We don’t need your help,” he snapped weakly. Elia sat down next to the captive.

“Listen, today, that was only the start. They will get those answers out of you or kill you in the process.” Randell shook his head.

“You’re…lying…” Elia shook her head back at him.

“I’m not. Hop wouldn’t have called me if he didn’t think you needed help.” Randell
creased his brow.

“H-Hop?”

“Hovsep, the guy who…interrogated you.” Elia answered lightly. Randell seemed to be thinking.

“We need help, Randell.” Jaumet managed, barely forcing the words out. “We need to get out of…of here.” His head fell back to the silver floor, and he squeezed his eyes shut as it stole the last of his energy. Randell’s eyes closed halfway.

“Fine. We…we need help.” Elia pressed her lips into a small, sad smile, and held out her hand. Randell pulled his knees to his chest and struggled to support his chest with his wrists. He made a grab for her hand, almost loosing his balance. Elia nodded reassuringly and closed her hand hard as soon Randell’s touched it.

He felt almost instantly better. Her strength spell coursed through his muscles all the way down to his bones. He tried to pull away as he stood up, but Elia shook her head and walked him to the door. Hovsep had left, so Elia sat Randell down on his bed.

She edged around the holding room back to Jaumet. Her hand was light on his
shoulder, but it gave him strength, just a little. He was able to curl tighter, but any
movement still hurt. He squeezed his eyes tighter and sobbed. Elia gripped onto his arm, trying to ease the strength spell into his body, but his body wouldn’t accept it. She slipped her free hand into his and clung as tightly as she could. Jaumet felt her efforts, but nothing
helped. He shook his head.

“I’m going to die.” He sobbed again and tears leaked onto the cold, hard floor.

“No, you’re not,” Elia’s assertion was flat and obvious. She bit her lip stubbornly, and slipped her arms under Jaumet. He opened his eyes as far as he could in surprise.

“What are you…?” Elia didn’t answer. She was focused on standing up with the boy in her arms. She was small, but she wasn’t weak, and Jaumet felt himself lifted off the ground. It felt better in the air, but the heavy air of the silver room still pressed his energy out of his body. His head fell back from where Elia’s arm supported his upper back. The girl
held him tighter and hurried to the door. Randell was too weak to get up, but he saw Jaumet and his eyes widened.

“J-Jaumet…” he whispered. Elia carried him as fast as she could to Hovsep’s bedroom and laid him down gently on the white, austere bed.

Jaumet struggled to find each breath and his eyes we closing fast. He was going.
Elia picked up his hand and held it between her palms, clasping her fingers around it.

“Stay with me,” she whispered. “Keep talking.” Jaumet swallowed and sobbed again.

“I don’t want to die.”

“You won’t. You won’t.” Elia whispered. “Keep talking. Don’t close your eyes.”

“I-I’ll miss the summers the most…We sat outside and lazed around, at-at l-least on
the weekends…I liked the watermelon…not…not cause it t-tastes good, b-but
because…because we spat the seeds out.”
Randell’s eyes widened. All these memories, this we Jaumet spoke of, that was just them. Just Randell and Jaumet. Before all the craziness, before everything…happened. Jaumet talked, Elia fed as much energy as she could into his weak body, but it wasn’t fast enough. He was slipping away. Randell bit his trembling lip. Jaumet was his only friend, and he couldn’t let him die. He needed to help.

Hesitating, but only for a second, Randell slipped his own hand into Jaumet’s and replicated what Elia was doing.

Jaumet’s eyes opened further.

“R-randell?” Randell nodded.

“Of course. Hold on, buddy, well get through this. God knows what else we’ve gone through.” Jaumet nodded weakly.

“Do you remember…that-that one summer…we spit the seeds at all the p-people that passed?” Randell laughed

“Their faces were priceless.” Jaumet laughed, his croaking voiced gaining strength.

“And then…then the overseer told us to stop, b-but we just…we just spat seeds at h-him too.” He laughed again, and Randell joined in. The strength spell was slowly pulling itself into Jaumet’s muscles and bones.

He blinked his eyes rapidly, and raised his head. Elia smiled and helped him sit up.

Randell dropped his hand and went in for the hug.

“Thank God,” he whispered, almost sobbing. “I thought you would leave me.” Jaumet coughed and laid his head on his friend’s shoulder.

Weakly. “A Pi never gives up.”

the windy city 1

“Always a well-dressed fool
Who wouldn’t spare the rod
Never for me”
-“Foreigner’s God” by Hozier

Colm

His fingers flew. Colm was flying, but he wasn’t free. His fingers followed regimented paths, a platoon of soldiers, lining up, striking one at a time, just like they had planned. But one renegade struck out at the wrong time, throwing a sour note into the tail-wind of his violin.

His father’s voice came to mind, crowding his thoughts. Start over, it said. He stopped, ready to start from the beginning. But the judges expected a different path. They held their waiting fingers next to the sour note, ready to move on. His brow-line broke in the center; the soldiers must charge, must go on. There was no starting over.

Now his fingers flew and flew free. The soldiers were fierce and courageous. They followed the lines of their plan, but also their intuition, their innate sense of battle. Colm knew he had messed up again, but the notes flowed in lines and this time those lines felt like music.

Colm had trouble concealing his smile when he bowed, as one judge clapped,
another smiled, and the last one nodded, not in recognition, but in agreement. But his father was watching so conceal it he did.

He had trouble looking at his father when he walked off the stage. But his father was watching so look at him he did.

His father’s face was flat but the lines of his face were angry. Colm had learned to see that anger, no matter how slight, so he could know when to duck, when to brace himself, and when to run away.

This anger was slight but intense. This was when to run away. But there was nowhere to run, so Colm walked straight into battle, into the fray, trying to conceal his fear but in all likelihood failing.

“You made a mistake,” his father said. The words that had been waiting in his father’s mouth now met Colm’s ears. The voice was quiet, more intense, more dangerous. Run. It said. You can’t duck this one. You can’t brace yourself this time. Run.

“Why didn’t you start over, Colm?” The voice continued. Quiet. Intense. Dangerous. Run. “I told you to start over.”

Colm’s voice stuck in his throat thick with fear. He didn’t try to speak because he knew he couldn’t. He knew he would speak wrong. He knew he would
make a mistake. “Answer me Colm.” A warning. Not in the words. In the lines, straight on a calm face. Run. His voice stuck in a throat thick with fear. The voice didn’t need an answer.

“You shouldn’t have made that mistake, Colm. You should have started over.” The
voice still wanted an answer. His throat was thick with fear. His father banged on the ground the cane he never used for walking. “Answer me, Colm,” he snapped.

But Colm could not.

The cane swung backwards, but Colm had no time to react before it hit his head. He sunk to his knees, surprised as much as he was not. But the pain still cracked and stung, hot on his forehead. He looked up, mouth open in surprise. His father had never lost his temper in public. Only in private where bedroom walls would hide his shame.

But he struck again. Again. Pain snaked and cracked and barely escaped Colm’s lips. He had learned a long time ago not to scream. Screaming was uncouth, uncivilized, and, most importantly, it attracted the neighbors’ attention.

So Colm did not scream, but he did attract someone’s attention. The cracks of cane against his skull were louder than the grunts that passed Colm’s lips. His father couldn’t blame him this time. He felt the blood run down the bridge of his nose and gasped in surprise, in fear.

The pain that cracked and bled threatened his vision with black but he saw the eyes of a woman, the horrorstruck eyes of a woman.

He heard shouting. He wasn’t shouting. The voice was coming from outside his head.

And even through the pain all he could think was that his father couldn’t blame him anymore, not this time. Foreign arms pulled his father back. Neighbors.

He had bothered the neighbors. He shook his head. No. No. No. He wasn’t the one shouting.

The woman pulled him against her chest. Like a mother.

And maybe she was. But she was a neighbor; he had bothered the neighbors. Now they were interfering. He was breathing fast and quick. He wasn’t the one shouting; he couldn’t be – the voice was so far outside his own body. Father couldn’t blame him. He pulled his head into the neighbor’s chest. He gasped through the pain. But he wasn’t the one shouting.

“Colm! Colm! Colm!” He knew that voice. Sophie. The neighbor pulled back. His little sister was around him, hidden in his chest. He was supposed to protect her. How could he do that now? He leaned in, his arms barely around her.

“I’m sorry, Sophie,” he whispered. “I’m sorry, Sophie. I failed.”

the vice 1

Philo leaned against the ropes of the theater’s curtain. The show was running on the lit stage in front of him. That’s how it always was. Philo stuck to the corner. No one would think about who built the set or who was running the lights. They would watch the actors pantomiming human emotions. They would be entertained. They might laugh. They might cry. All the while forgetting what the play really was. A fake.

The stage manager walked up to Philo.
“Get ready for the set change,” she ordered. Philo nodded. “Remember, the
prince goes offstage and we need to get the bed on as quickly as possible. I know this is just a rehearsal, but you know what they say: practice like you play.”

Philo nodded again, but he wasn’t listening.

The pain was crawling through his toes. It shot though his legs, and now it
was crawling again. Higher, higher, his navel, his ribs. His heart.

It stabbed.

His chin met his knee. He barely heard the stage manager’s voice as it trickled
down to him.

“Philo, are you are right?” He focused on his eyes. His jaw muscle’s strained.
His joints screamed as he straightened out and brushed Dora off.

“I’m fine…just…leave me alone…” He ran, or that’s what he planned to do. He
only stumbled a couple steps before he slammed into a row of lockers.

He was going to die.

This is what happened when you forgot to take the drug. You died. Philo was
going to die. Then they’d all know. They’d know that the vice had grabbed him
around the neck. He could almost hear their voices now.

“He seemed like such a nice guy.” It was always seemed with the drug deaths.

None of them were nice, but they all had seemed that way. The only kindnesses the deceased would get were the denials. “It can’t be. I don’t believe it,” like being on the Drug made them a different person, like it made all their good deeds go away.

Now Philo was heading to that same place, to that same despair in death. His
head was spiraling, his vision blackening.
Cold glass pressed into his palm. He dared not look. It felt like the Vice, [his
savior now]. But what if it wasn’t?

He opened his hand. A blue liquid shimmered at him.

It was the Drug. His blurred eyes caught a brown head of hair. The head turned and nodded. He didn’t have time or energy to follow his savior, but now he
had the drug. He could live, at least for now.