curse of the magi 2

Gordan Gligor stepped tentatively into the wizard lounge. He had no problem with the Wizards, but some of them took issue with their overseer. He turned to his new apprentice as he stepped through the door.

“Here it is, the Wizard Lounge. If you’re good at your job, you’ll be here a lot.” His
apprentice nodded, but didn’t shy away from the Wizards around him or the thought of meeting them. Gligor was impressed, but he supposed someone who wanted to become a Wizard overseer couldn’t be squeamish about Wizards.

“Hello, Mr. Gligor,” greeted a brown-haired wizard barely over five feet. Gligor smiled back at her.

“Hello, Elia. I want you to meet my new apprentice, Lois. Lois, this is Eris Athena.”

“But I go by Elia,” she butted in. Lois smiled and shook Elia’s hand. Her eyes were a stark, startling green, like they were trying their hardest to convince you that they weren’t any other color.

“It’s a pleasure to meet you,” Lois said in a smooth baritone. Elia hesitated, then
smiled.

“I’m glad you feel that way.”

curse of the magi 1

The cards flew around the poker table as the Wizards silently reveled in their minds, darkened by years of maltreatment and oppression. Nobody talked. Nobody wanted to. But the cards were dealt, and they were ready to play poker.

Violeta was first. She glanced at her cards, but before she could bet, Thor gave her a double push. He had pocket aces, could she really have better? She didn’t; she had a 2 and a 7 of different suits: not good enough for a shield, and Violeta was a 29, not strong enough
for a bluff like that.

She folded.

Thor was next. His pocket aces gave him a double shield: not even Rei’s two spades could get him to fold, but he would wait for the flop to raise. Gerhardt had a 3 and an 8 but enough brute strength to bluff, and foolishly, he did. Elia hardly used any shield or push
with her king and queen of hearts, but despite Thor’s pocket aces and Gerhardt’s unrefined bluff, she called Gerhardt’s raise and made it to the flop. As she dealt the flop, Gerhardt shook his head.

“I could really use a smoke,” he remarked. Elia laughed.

“Shit, Gerhardt, only rich people smoke.” He shrugged.

“I’m rich enough.” The poker table lapsed into a stony, cavernous silence. The words in every downcast eye seemed to scream, don’t make me say it! But Gerhardt foolishly waited for an answer. Elia smoothed over the silence with a rough compromise.

“But you’re a wizard,” she answered, yet the dreaded words still rung in the
cavernous silence: You’re not a person.

viviocentrism + vampires 1

“Elephant in the room. What is death?”
You’re caught off guard. Death is accepted, no value assigned.

“Death is an absence of life.”

The room holds its breath, waiting for the mocking response to what feels like a
stupid answer to a stupid question. But stupid questions are the name of the game when one slip-up in Cross-Examination can cascade into a disaster of outrageous proportions.

“Then what is life?”

You look at the judges, rebellious and unemotional.

“What isn’t life?”

“This is my Cross-Ex. What is life?”

You pause but you cannot wait forever

“Physical and emotional awareness.”

“Why should life be preserved?”

The question seems insensitive and unnecessary to the casual audience members gathered for the big event, but the audience isn’t deciding the round.

You incline your head at the judges.

“Life has a tendency to preserve itself. That tendency takes the form of a basic desire and fundamental human right. It is our responsibility, therefore, to preserve the most lives possible in any given situation.”

Your opponent’s next question is interrupted by the rude and persistent beep of the five timers in the room. An hour later the round ends, and as the judges turn to their careful notes to deliberate, your best friend, a lower caliber debater with rebelliously gelled hair and a persistent fedora leans on the desk you have just stood up from to stretch your legs.

“An interesting issue you discussed today,” he comments glibly. You shrug in
response.

“Critique of viviocentrism, it’s going around.” Your friend laughs.

“Like a disease.” He pauses to scrutinize the three judges and your opponents in
turn. “You know, it’s interesting,” he begins again, “under your definition, a Vampire would be alive.” You shrug again, determined to brush it off in an as distantly objective way as possible.

“They’re undead. It’s a grey area.”

“Zombies?”

“Half-dead, no emotional awareness.”

“But plants do?”

“They have experiences similar to pain.”

“Pain is not an emotion.”

“So? There’s a sliding scale of emotional awareness. It determines the life we feel
compelled to preserve.”

“And psychopaths?”

“They have emotional awareness, just…”

“Less?” your friend snaps. You have trouble accounting for his change in behaviour.

“Well, yeah–“ you shrug defensively.

“And that means?” Your words choke you. You’re tongue-tied in a way you have never been in round. “Right,” your friend finishes, “it means they’re not alive.” There is nothing to explain the disgust in his voice.

bottoms dream 9

Rose knelt in the crypts. She felt she was praying, but she could not quite be sure what that meant as Rose herself knew nothing of the god she prayed to or even the words she used to reach this mysterious power. It was vigil, ritual, atonement, and supplication, all at once,
and to any god that would listen.

Raymond’s reluctant footsteps went this time unanswered. He was forced to light his own torch–Rose would raise no flame for him now.

“Rose?”

“Your Majesty.” Her respect in and of itself was disrespectful. He hated that she would not fight him.

“I am here to avenge my uncle’s death.” He hoped that by playing his part he could fill the interaction with some meaning and dispel the lethargy that pulled his legs to the floor.

“You know I did not kill him.”

“But my parents wish me to kill you.”

“The superego ordering the execution of the id. They are always at war.” She raised her fingers to her temples. “You must kill me.”

“Excuse me?”

“I am an unnecessary presence. I will fight, but you must kill me. If you could drive back darkness with your sword, would you hesitate?” Raymond moved towards her with the toe of his boot. Drawing a sword from her back, she spun around and faced him for her final
fight. It was only in the haze of dream that Raymond could remember the words from the doctor’s tattered book so perfectly.

“’The blood soul. In other words the inner connection to the unconscious again leads to a sense of soul, an experience of an inner life, a place where meanings home…befriending is the feeling approach to the dream, and so one takes care receiving the dream’s feelings, as with a living person with whom we begin a relationship.’”

Rose pulled back, letting the tip of her sword drop just an inch. Grabbing her wrist, Raymond pulled her free hand towards him. Her eyes went wide. Only then did he draw his sword. Rose watched him in a rare display of fear, but she could not compel herself to stop him.
He sliced his own palm first, then hers.

As he pressed the cuts firmly together he pulled her hand close to his chest. Her sword clattered the stone crypt floor.
Mea sanguina est tua,” he whispered with spell-like intensity. Their blood filled the air around them, and together they swam up from the deep.

pentacle 3

PART 1 – THREE OF SWORDS (cont.)

Abby rested her head on her hands. She watched a small group of children screaming outside the coffee shop window. She may have only been just out of high school but she already had a feeling that she had missed out on life, that her nose was too far buried in books, school books, fantasy books, romance novels, and she had missed something critical that couldn’t be found in those pages.

“Getting contemplative again?” asked Angel from behind. Abby shook her head.

“It’s nothing,” she responded.

“It’s not nothing,” Angel replied, “but we don’t have to talk about it.” Abby frowned, always a bit peeved at how quickly her friend Angel could see right through her.

“Got your favorite,” Angel said, setting an Americano in front of Abby and sticking a straw into her own sugary concoction. Abby leaned closer.

“Are those…sprinkles?” She asked.

“They are!” Angel grinned and continued to happily suck up the multicolored excuse for coffee. “So,” said Angel, slamming her drink dramatically on the table, “did you hear about Adrian’s uncle.” Abby looked up.

“Adrian’s uncle?”

“Yeah,” Angel said, “you know, Bahir?”

“I heard that he died,” Abby respond looking deep into her drink.

“Committed suicide,” Angel corrected around a swig of sugar. “Apparently he shot himself. In the head.” Abby didn’t look up.

“That doesn’t seem -“

“Like him at all?” Angel cut her off. “I know! Do you think they did an autopsy?” Abby was beginning to feel sick.

“I don’t know…” she faltered. Angel’s demeanor softened.

“We shouldn’t be talking about this like this,” she said more soberly. “Bahir was amazing.” Abby felt her eyes prickle with tears.

“Yeah, he was,” she said softly. The earth trembled softly.

“Huh,” said Angel, looking around her, “a tremor.”

bottoms dream 8

The doctor’s office seemed purposely deserted. Rose had not been gentle on the lock, but the door was open, and there was nothing between the walls. Raymond followed her like a wraith. He was passive, but he was here–that counted for something. Rose did not offer him
even a small part of her attention. That attention was busy burning through the papers littering the doctor’s desk as she rifled through them.

Raymond had come on some unspoken contract that they would find out, for better or worse, what the hell was going on, but it was Rose and her conviction that had brought them here. Raymond absentmindedly thumbed through a tattered and dog-eared copy of Blue Fire. By James Hilman. He had no idea who that was.

“What are you looking for, Rose?”Raymond asked, wraith-like. Rose bent over and growled deep in her throat.

“Something, anything.” Her impatience seemed directed at Raymond. The boy attempted to set things straight.

“I changed too, you know,” he said. Rose stood up. He had gained, for better or worse, her full attention.

“You?” her lip curled around the front edge of the word. “All you’ve become is more perfect. The girls fall over themselves when you walk through the door.” She raised the pitch of her voice and taunted Raymond with the tilt of her head. “Oh, Raymond, you’re so handsome. I don’t understand
this. You’re so smart, Raymond. Can you help me? Oh, Raymond, I’d die for you, Raymond.”

She edged closer to her target, their noses only inches apart, and dared him with her eyes to retaliate. “And what are you to deserve that?” Raymond’s response, more than anything,
was surprise. He did not speak before Rose herself registered the surprise and, realizing what she had done, turned away from her victim. Her searching became frantic.

“What did they do to me?” Raymond reached out to touch her shoulder. His intent was to pull her back, to restrain her from herself. She turned around at his touch. Tears threatened the corner of her eyes. The touch seemed precariously uncertain, like train wheels tipping on
the edge of the track. “What did I become?” she asked, her voice cracking. From the edge of her arm to the tips of his fingers spread an untamable warmth. Raymond grasped her other arm in an urge only to possess that warmth. Loud sounds and rough hands pulled him away from the dangerous heat.

He heard the doctor’s words ring impassively through the numbness spreading again through his chest.

“‘The most distressing images in teams and fantasies, those we shy from for their disgusting distortion and perversion, are precisely the ones that break the allegorical frame of what we think we know about this person or that, this trait of ourselves or that the ‘worst’ images are thus the best, for they are the ones that restore a figure to its pristine
power as a numinous person at work in the soul.’”

But you took her away, the numbness in his chest only dully responded.

bottoms dream 7

Raymond knelt before his father’s throne.

“You may stand,” the king graciously allowed. Raymond disliked this formality, but played his grudging part because this was one of the many formalities on which the ruling Castells insisted.

“You called for me, your majesty?” the prince answered. The mocking edge of his voice persisted although he parents had long since begun to ignore it.

“The public memorial in honor of your uncle is approaching.”

“I am aware.”

“You must remember to publicly pledge to avenge his death.” Raymond’s jaw must have dropped, but he would not have known–his entire face had gone numb at the suggestion. He quickly regained his wits.

“What an honor. We all wish get back at God for the way he has treated us.”

“Please forget your jests,” the queen interceded.

“Your uncle was murdered,” the king chided. “Must you act like this?” Raymond’s defiance flared.

“All that murdered your uncle was old age and his love for wine.”

“You know who slaughtered him yet you refused to accept it. Do not turn your back on us. Do not refuse to face the traitor who walks between our walls.”

Cornered by responsibility, Raymond parroted his father’s orders reluctantly.

“I will avenge the death of Prince Henry Castell and kill the traitor who walks between our walls.”

quarantine 4

Indigo walked down the hallway in jeans and his white undershirt. He walked quickly and reluctantly, like he had somewhere to be but was afraid to go there. His journey brought him to one particular stainless steel door. He pressed the key tightly into his palm.

What was he doing? He was a guard, not a caretaker. The broken arm shouldn’t
bother him, nor should the damage done by Jeremias’s angry fists. He’d seen beatings before.

Why should this girl be different?

The teeth of the key left bite-marks in his shaking hands, and he looked at the door
for moments longer before he unlocked it. The little snake lifted her head in curiosity like she had not been asleep, and maybe she hadn’t. She blinked and pinched her eyebrows together. Even Indigo had to admit; he was strange company for the middle of the night in a
room that looked too much like a prison cell to be anything else.

The groundcrawler sat up and swung her legs off the twin-sized cot that passed as a bed. She was ready, ready to get up, ready to attack.

What do you want? She snapped with her eyes. Indigo shook his head and held out a condom.

“I have an offer for you.”

That little snake looked at the small shiny package for longer than Indigo wanted to
hold it out, but still he held his offering, and still she stared.

Indigo watched her face closely for any sign of change. Her eyes were wide, as
always, but they didn’t change. But her chin seemed to bob up and down in a slow, imperceptible nod. Finally she nodded, curtly and certainly. Indigo nodded back.

“Good.” And together they unceremoniously pulled off their pants and their underwear. They kept their shirts on and their voices low. Although it wouldn’t have mattered anyway; those walls were meant to keep in any sound no matter how piercing and painful. Indigo hoped that these sounds would not be painful. With just as little
ceremony, he rolled the condom on his erect penis, and looked at the snake expectantly.

She nodded, and it began. There was just as little prelude as there was ceremony. It was not long before Indigo was on top of the groundcrawler and then, in her.

Naja watched and felt, almost impassively. It hurt a little at first, but then it felt good.

He waited for her to orgasm, then withdrew, tied the condom, and threw it into the trashcan where they had thrown her tooth earlier that day.

Without invitation, he laid down next to this…snake. They were both breathing
heavy and neither looked at the other as they laid, almost touching, on the twin-sized excuse for a bed. Their breathing had quieted when Indigo finally looked at her.

“Do you ever talk?” he asked. She looked back at him. Their noses were barely
inches apart.

“I don’t talk to guards,” she answered, her voice soft and smooth. Indigo raised his eyebrows.

“Am I not a guard?”

“Not right now,” she smirked with a small, soft laugh. Indigo let the silence hang before he turned back and asked another question.

“What’s your name?” The snake sighed.

“Just my genus and species: Naja sumatrana. People call me Naja.” Indigo watched her closely.

“But not guards.” Naja gave him a long cold hard look.

“Guards aren’t people.”

Indigo didn’t answer. He closed his eyes and breathed deep. Naja looked up at the
ceiling, wondering, but not really caring, how he took that comment. He finally turned back to her, with his body, not just with his head, and slid his fingers up her jawbone. He looked into her sharp brown eyes.

“Well, Naja,” he started softly, “snake or not, you’re quite something.” Naja pulled
herself closer and looked back at his eyes.

“What does that mean, Indigo?” He pulled back, surprised that she knew his name, but he looked back into her eyes and they pulled him forward.

“It means, Naja, that, guard or not, I regard you very highly.” Their eyes shared one solid, heavy-breathing moment. She didn’t expect what was coming, but she knew. He pulled her neck closer to him and their lips met. And Naja shared with this human guard a moment only her cheek had shared with a thin pair of lips, somewhere, buried deep in days when magnolia trees didn’t bring a knot to her throat.

But this moment was heavier, more alive. This moment belonged in reality and would not be disappointed because it would never, could never exist outside of this room.